CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

Has anyone else had the same experience? My father has both NPD and ADHD so I understand the distinction very well, although the sad thing is I’ve struggled with ADHD symptoms since birth but as soon as I turned 18 people would call me a narcissist despite me just trying to get on with life, work, be creative etc.

I’ve never managed to get the help or the diagnosis. Instead I was pushed down by many systems accusing me of being either narcissistic or a borderline.

It’s one of the reasons I’ve never been able to get mental health support that I’ve desperately needed since I was a child.

I have real ADHD alongside my CPTSD.

They just don’t understand it. I was born with it. Unfortunately I experienced severe childhood trauma having two parents who both have ADHD – hence I have a double whammy except one has BPD and the other NPD. I’m an INFJ. If you look up the Myers brigg it says INFJ’s are neurodivergent and they’re either NPD/BPD.

So the question is, is NPD/BPD indicators for neurodivergence? (The INFJ is supposed to be a blend of both NPD/BPD in one body which contradicts science. Then the CPTSD from all my traumas etc on top. That’s hard in itself to battle.

I’ve never met anyone without NPD/BPD who also meet the criteria for ADHD.

Think about that one. ☝️

I’ve always dated borderlines. Like my mum. My mum would compare me to my dad. I could never understand why. I took the NPD test on both me and my dad. My dad scared 9 traits. I scored 2.

I scored 93% percentile for ADHD inattentive type.

So that’s why I have no friends. They think I’m a “narcissist” when really? I have undiagnosed ADHD.

Now I have CPTSD to deal with. 💔

Can’t trust a world that wants to break you. That’s why I understand why Trump is the way he is.