CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

Well mental health services I’ve been to war many times before and made it out. But then my brain changed forever. I never wanted to be a sigma INFJ. Or experience PTSD attacks. I liked being an average INFJ. I don’t want to be “unique” or “scientifically impossible”. But I am. And that’s my truth.

Except sigma INFJ’s have one trigger that can transform their vulnerability into power:

Betrayal.

Because mental health services beat you down to kill you. That’s why the suicide rates are so high. Well that’s not going to happen anymore. Wait until my sertraline kicks in. I’ll be changing the system so no one else has to suffer from direct discrimination like I have. I’m not violent. But I am an INFJ. That’s my power. Ever met an INFJ-t before? I mean a real sigma INFJ-t? We were once the quiet ones. The kind ones. The ones who helped others. Who tried to fix them. Then one day….

SNAP. 🫰

They stopped.

And became something unprecedented.

A sigma INFJ.

There’s a saying “It’s the quiet ones you need to watch out for”.

Are we ready for change? Positive change? Here we go.

You’re not the first to betray me, but you were the last. No one, will go through what I did again. Gaslighting. Allowing a condition to get worse, on purpose. Destroying a woman’s life and body for a label. A label I never even had, but I never had a voice as a woman.

My anger is valid. But my war against others is never with weapons. It’s only with words. Words that shape my existence and bleed from my inner core.