god – CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

January 31, 2026

I thought I was bipolar since the age of 9 when I had my first poem published in a book, because I’d go to the library quite a lot. Was I right? I was born neurodivergent and if it really was bipolar then it’s connected with creative expression and ADHD and the INFJ personality type. I kept telling the mental health team I had bipolar in England since I was a teenager. They said “no you don’t, people don’t know they have it”.

So my CPTSD is new. My first PTSD attacks were in 2018. My timeline went all wrong. Everything just came up at once when I entered the ni-ti loop. So it really was England who destroyed my brain by telling the police to ignore me in 2018? Right. Okay. I understand why they like to…

If you’re currently going through the global spiritual awakening right now. Please stay strong. The severity of it will depend on how many traumas you’ve experienced, but you’ve got this. We can get through it. We just need to stay strong. I was blaming the governments but even those in power are baffled by it as it’s happening at once to true INFJ’s. They don’t know why.

I didn’t know God was forcing me to relive all my traumatic events to become awake.

I didn’t know that he was making me endure so much suffering to transform me. I didn’t know. Even my recent ex partner had no clue what was going on. He said “I don’t know what this is, but it’s not BPD”. Then came the ultimate collapse. The CPTSD. He said he’s never met a…