cptsd
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I sometimes wonder if they can change the descriptions. From the daughter of a father with NPD he meets 8/9 traits. I meet 2 traits. Learned traits. But I also have CPTSD from my father. My mum wasn’t the bad one, she reacted and then developed CPTSD herself, but I just grew up thinking it…
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Some people want this personality type – because it’s rare: when I was on my psychology degree we had to take the test and mine came up INFJ. I just laughed it off, and said “sure, I’m the rarest personality type in the world – I didn’t believe in it”. Until I experienced the ni-ti…
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I think the system is the problem. We will need to fix that in a positive way somehow. I managed to clean some of my room for the first time in months earlier. In between the CPTSD attacks. Why did Highland Council externally triggered my mania back when I was trying to focus on the…
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One day; an explosion erupts within your mind. You’re no longer you. You’re grieving your former self. In addition to my CPTSD I have experienced 6 traumatic events in the PTSD workbook. I don’t know which one is worse. PTSD or CPTSD. I don’t know why the highland council wanted to prevent me getting that…
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I don’t mean to expose my parents in written context to the outside world. Although when you have two parents each suffering with their own mental health conditions, you don’t want them to feel regret about what they’ve done to you, but merely find out who was psychologically abusing you so you can reclaim your…
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I’ve ordered the DBT workbook for CPTSD. I just need to get the medication for my standardised PTSD today. Having both is a tortured conflict. You never know which type of PTSD is impacting you the most. I fought for therapy for many years but failed within the NHS England system because they said “EUPD”…
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To analyse his quote into context from the same mind who understands, what Hemingway really means is, he looks okay on the outside, but inside – his brain was inner turmoil that bled his past traumas on to the page. Everyone forgot I was suffering too. Hemingway’s brain changed. He went through the CPTSD catastrophic…
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I have a tally chart. Lists of names of the people who have ever hurt me. Lists of institutions that have ever brought me down. Lists of degrading comments I’ve received. More and more lists. Accused of being narcissistic for being Autistic. Real Autism. But, I couldn’t get help from the system in the same…
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The police said they need evidence. I’m publicly posting evidence. Not out of spite, but because I am tired of having to defend myself when I’ve stood on my own two feet in life. Ernest Hemingway is the only person I can trust. He was broken by the system too. He was scared. He was…
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I also have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder – which is a little bit different to my CPTSD. PTSD is like a whole other universe. I analysed recently my PCL-5 score: It was 75 a few months ago, it’s now at 68. I am praying I can get the score lower to at least in mid-range scores.…
CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified 