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I feel like I need to escape somewhere safe. Somewhere where people don’t hurt me. I lost my voice. I’m broken. I’ll never get fixed now. It’s too late. Only Hemingway knows the pain I’m in. No one else does. I’m avoidant. I’m broken. Damaged. Worthless. Every word you can think of. Repeatedly being pressured…
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I was with my first long term ex on/off for a number of years, and I wasn’t getting pregnant. At 18 I had a positive test and the doctors said oh sorry you’ve had a miscarriage and to let it pass as it’s early stages. Not even sure if that’s on my GP records but…
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I hope I become who I really am. All those ptsd attacks. Although my CPN is nice, but she won’t like me now because I was upset with the injustice with Steve. She did say I was welcome any time to the mental health team, but I needed that correct diagnosis for court next week…
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I needed specialist support to get through my education in all settings. Because of my ADHD. It’s separate to my PTSD/CPTSD. I was still declined PIP and taken to court next week for it. Apparently I need to prove I have CPTSD when I know I have it as the paramedics have to help me…
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I definitely don’t trust the system now, because Steve wanted to bring me down even more. He has no idea what I’ve faced and what I deal with. No idea at all. Because he never even wanted to help me. I bet they called my parents. The same parents that on my childhood social services…
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I was penalised by all education establishments as a child for the above symptoms. I couldn’t understand why they were blaming me or bringing me down. When I first got with my recent ex partner I noticed it in him too but manifested in different ways. He wanted to make money, liked goal orientated activities,…
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And it all stemmed from being traumatised in their childhood. To prevent this, you need to listen to me and support neurodivergence because otherwise we will keep running the same old cycles and insanity is making the same mistakes and expecting different results. I’m always in conflict with myself because I’m ADHD and CPTSD and…
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I projected my empathy onto him through shadow work, and we created a specific bond. It’s important to note 📝 Not all narcissists go round and abuse women. My recent ex never abused me once, or try and control me. He knew what would happen if he tried to. No one messes with an empath…
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I know it’s going to be a horrendous process for me to work through, especially when I have to relive sexual abuse from 20 years ago, the abuse I do remember as other types of abuse have been suppressed, but my nervous system can’t even have sex anymore. I feel like my life has been…
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CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified 