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I know the difference. My mum is BPD, I’m CPTSD. But I’ll never have that voice because I’m my mother’s next target and she has her flying monkeys. If I have to keep having intrusive memories, I’m going to end up so brain damaged. I’m stuck. I don’t have a voice. I’m so numb. I’m…
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This is why I can’t understand why my psychiatric nurse shrugged off my ptsd attacks and the previous letters from England that said PTSD. Is it anchoring bias? Are Scotland trying to bring me down? I keep pacing in my room going through my childhood records alone trying to figure out the truth whilst re-triggering…
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I’m in intense distress. I feel trapped. Stuck. Betrayed. The system destroyed my brain forever and there’s nothing I can do to get myself back again. It’s too late. My whole life is now over. I never had “emotional flashbacks” in 2018, only standardised PTSD attacks. My brain is permanently changed. CPTSD – the catastrophic…
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My psychiatrist said “You have to be single” I know. I knew in 2018 I can’t catch feelings for anyone. I have unresolved sexual abuse trauma and relationship trauma. That’s why I choose relationships where I don’t have to feel anything. Usually. Relationship PTSD is a bit of a messy one. It’s awful. Do not…
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Even if it looks like “BPD” … watch this… which you’d be correct in the sense I have PTSD on top of my CPTSD. They need to change how BPD is treated because my CPTSD is irreversible. But still needs to be helped in some way.
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I thought I was invincible from it before the age of 25. I thought “be positive” no point worrying; but little did I know, things would hit me. My abuse is so severe in childhood that realistically, I should have fallen a long long time ago. I don’t understand why I didn’t. But even when…
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I didn’t handle Covid well, my body collapsed. I developed worsening of my hEDS which is actually a complication of long covid. I’ve started sneezing and feeling unwell but I’m not eating. I can’t go stay with my ex because of my past traumas, it’s going to flare up my PTSD. I hate being in…
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I’m only talking to him because I have his second hand items on my Vinted and it will take him too long to upload them. And because we have court together next week. We haven’t been meeting up or anything. Only when needed so I can give him and send him Vinted money. So it’s…
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I will find out Steve Cargill why you’re refusing me trauma therapy. Don’t play your little manipulating games with me. Horrible man. You’re going down in court next week for covering it up. Have fun. It’s spiteful to do that. Really spiteful. You disgust me. I can’t feel happy or sad. I’m numb. And have…
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The emotional flashbacks are so intense because my childhood trauma is extreme for the CPTSD. So I can’t understand why Steve Cargill did what he did? I’m trying to understand? I’m taking it higher up so they can sort it out for me as I can’t do it on my own.
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CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified 