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I have a meeting at my university next week. I went through this in 2018. I was taken off my course and it was disguised as “Are you sure you’re well enough to study?” Why should I come off a course for being abused psychologically and couldn’t defend myself? They were more worried of their…
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Me and my recent ex partner understand each other in ways no one else will. We just were never meant to be together. We knew that quite early on in the relationship. We stopped sleeping together about a year ago, but I knew if I had to leave – because of the 2018 incident with…
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I recently encountered a significant external trigger with my local authority who I asked if they can house me because of my DESNOS. Instead, they decided to belittle me and called me and said “I called the police on you, and your GP” – extremely sarcastically, I might add. I sent them an email and…
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I like being single, consumed in my own thoughts in both its bitterness and glory. Relationships are difficult. Not because I want them to be, but because I will experience multiple physical symptoms when I’m in a relationship and not experiencing my separate PTSD attacks. I don’t make friends with anyone at university, mostly because…
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Frozen in fear Imagine trauma so igniting, Chemicals race, Thoughts are lightning Vivid scenes of powerless woes A historical trip, Memory lane she goes Confusion and fear entwine as one Apprehension and deceit I’m left alone A swirl of doubt so refine Questioning one’s existence A headache sublime A flashback of fear so intense To…
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CPTSD used to be known as DESNOS, or Disorders of Extreme Stress Not Otherwise Specified. It’s not the same as PTSD or BPD. I’ll explain… Borderline Personality Disorder is a personality disorder developed from prolonged events in childhood. You may have been abused, bullied, psychologically manipulated, encountered multiple traumatic events, experienced domestic violence, and this…
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Just. One. Trigger. It’s all it takes. Just. One. Trigger. To experience a world different to what you once knew. To have your traumatic memories you suppressed for years rise to the surface. To suddenly feel like you have a brain injury and will never see the light again. The trigger has to be a…
CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified 