It’s dangerous to fall in love with CPTSD. I can only have platonic relationships. Relationships where if I like someone, but the feelings aren’t strong enough for a relationship. This is because falling for someone can send me into PTSD attacks, since I was with my old ex Steven. I really loved him, but he…

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We’re only on this planet once. That frightens me more than anything else in this world. I like sleep because my life tends to fall apart when I’m awake. I wish I could have the mindset of some doctors. Death doesn’t bother them. Many doctors are sociopaths and psychopaths. They have to be. They can’t…

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The rocking is a hard part of PTSD for me. My ex partner made me laugh yesterday. He said “I get blamed for everything as per usual”. I said guess who caused my CPTSD and he replies oh probably me. 😂😂 I couldn’t help but laugh. Stop it. Look, you might be emotional unavailable but…

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Automatic Writing is a symptom of CPTSD. This is why I write so much. To be able to write very fast, you have to be traumatised to an extent that you shouldn’t have survived some of the abuse that traumatised you. That’s why in history, the greatest thinkers and poets became who they were and…

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I liked it better when I wasn’t suffering from solely the PTSD and CPTSD. I had my manic states, but I’d sit and create, write, learn, read. Anything creative to take my mind back to the present moment. Is it bipolar? Or is it CPTSD? Who knows? But I am having ptsd attacks at the…

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Okay maybe I do have bipolar, but the tortured genius type. It’s very rare though. That’s what they told me in 2018, alongside the PTSD attacks. They said it’s so rare that only 0.6% of the population have it and it’s hard to pick up. They said you’re not special. You’re manipulative. They said to…

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I’ve finally got a ticket to the club.

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Guess what. It’s CPTSD. It’s only just been added in the ICD. America refuses to believe it exists. They haven’t me yet. Don’t mind me. My favourite song at the moment. I used to pay attention to my looks. I was happy before I dated men. Do not recommend. Stay single.

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She was really lovely. I still like her. She still chose to look after me, even when I moved to Scotland. I’m not blaming you. ❤️

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