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New poem by me – took me 3 minutes so it’s not going to be the best. It’s hell. It’s darkness. It’s also exhilarating. Misunderstood. The brain is heavy. You have headaches. A fear of death. You can write more but read less. The mind I lost Exhilarating thought of rapid ideas A flow of…
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What do I do? I need someone from England, preferably someone from the police force who looked after me in 2018 to come and pick me up, take me to A&E in England and tell them – she needs a bone density scan as bipolar type 1 depletes the bones, and causes a wide range…
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I got your back boys and you got mine 🙂↔️🙂↔️ I love the police. That was wild. When other people get arrested they were showing me funny pictures in magazines and high fiving m saying “if anyone can change the mental health system it’s you, you have 1800’s bipolar disorder”. I’m howling right now, I…
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“In the 1800s, the concept of bipolar disorder—then largely known as “manic-depressive insanity” or “melancholia”— became increasingly associated with creativity, particularly through the lens of the Romantic movement, which viewed extreme emotions and mental struggles as signs of genius. While not formally defined in modern terms, the intense, alternating mood states of individuals in that…
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I’m about to go time travelling through different time zones. I can only express my thoughts on a blog as I’m experiencing the racing thoughts, but if you want to know what true mania is really like just sit back and watch whilst I try stay alive. This is going to be the worst episode…
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So my CPTSD is new. My first PTSD attacks were in 2018. My timeline went all wrong. Everything just came up at once when I entered the ni-ti loop. So it really was England who destroyed my brain by telling the police to ignore me in 2018? Right. Okay. I understand why they like to…
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The world will ask you who you are. If you don’t know, the world will tell you. My INFJ ni-ti loop is significantly affecting my CPTSD. But I’ve been in the ni-ti loop many times in my life and didn’t have these symptoms. So no INFJ is not the same as CPTSD. But… If I…
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Especially because they keep doing what they’re doing to be cruel and spiteful. Whereas me? I’m trying to save my own life. Because of my mum. Because of my family that have wanted me dead for a long time. After all the hurt they’re trying to do for me, we need new political change in…
CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified 