CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

My brain is still not functioning properly, but I’m having less PTSD attacks which is a start.

But I was misdiagnosed with BPD and had that label used against me since a young age in England so I couldn’t get the help on time. It’s a shame they’re allowed to do that to be honest. It’s not something that should be legal.

I have so much to catch up on with my degree as I’ve been unable to study so I need to push my brain to it’s this week, sometimes it’s a good thing because I can complete an assignment and get a high grade by doing a year’s study in a few days, although my manic stage hinders that alongside my ADHD.

Now I’ve got CPTSD it’s exceptionally harder to do that but I love creativity and don’t want to let myself down because of the traumatic life I’ve had even if it feels like I have brain damage or I’m going into emotional flashbacks and waves of intense fear. I sometimes wonder if 1800’s type bipolar disorder was CPTSD all along. All the artists were traumatised.

The trauma drives what you feel.