CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

They can’t be that ignorant? Surely not?

After writing about an abusive incident from my childhood my body started going crazy.

“Well you not sleeping or eating isn’t very good is it?”

And you seriously think I want to feel this way? You seriously think I want this diagnosis or condition? Any other mental health condition which doesn’t have Hemingway style physical issues and outbursts of emotion would be great right now.

“Oh but you’re intelligent, you can write a lot”

It’s none of their business how I learned to write, let them think I was born that way.

They’re winding me up. They’re on a windup they have to be. The courts have awarded me £6.5k and I found a major trauma specialist in the area so booking an appointment with him when the money comes through to try get to a good point with my body and mind. There’s no communicating with the mental health team. It falls on deaf ears.

I’m the one trying to heal myself at the moment. I don’t know what they’re there for to be quite honest if they don’t want to help people.

Surely they know what PTSD or CPTSD is right? I’m not the only one diagnosed. But sometimes I do feel like the only one. It might have took about 100 traumas in my life to get to this stage but this is why I have a blog.

Ernest Hemingway had CPTSD. It’s how we learned to write. I just let go his secret. I’m a reborn Hemingway without the violence. 🧘‍♀️ Hemingway’s dancing in heaven right now saying yeah you show them what I was dealing with. Borderline personality? After war and surviving plane crashes and all his childhood traumas? Are you having a laugh? He had CPTSD. Poor Hemingway. I feel sorry for him, because now I know what he went through. This is classic comedy this is. He was never misogynistic on purpose. People just don’t get it so they? Nope. Didn’t think so. If Hemingway had BPD then why is there 40 million women diagnosed with it. Where’s their notebooks and pens and all the horrible symptoms above that come with it. 😂 He was accused of being borderline, narcissistic, bipolar, anything else people want to accuse him of? He had CPTSD. Get a grip.

I think they all need brain transplants. Hey, me and Hemingway, we developed automatic writing abilities from trauma.

It makes me laugh how they ignore me and take the mick out of me, when I’m genuinely struggling with CPTSD. Because they want to use the “BPD” label against me. What is it with you lot and labels? No wonder why people die up here from MH issues. They need training on new conditions. They need to modernise the mental health act.

This is getting ridiculous. He didn’t have BPD. He had CPTSD. It wasn’t around back then. Take a look at my full page and it will tell you why Hemingway was the way he was. He was worse because well he survived two plane crashes and was in war. But even he struggled, that’s why he wrote about it.

Then you get people nowdays in society and they’re like “well I can’t write after trauma you’re the only who can” –

*Me casually walking to Hemingway’s grave to wake him up to tell them they’re all thick and get him the correct diagnosis”. He’s clapping for me. “He’s like yep, you tell them girl. I had war training you haven’t so keep going”. I honestly have no clue why NHS Highland are covering it up or even attempting to. I’m talking about the people at the top, the ones my psychiatric nurse used to work for. Yeah bit fishy tbh. They know something I don’t. ☕️ I only threatened them with court because no one was listening to me and the PTSD on top of the CPTSD was intense. I’ve got a severe case of it because I have a very traumatic history. And it’s a horrendous condition to have. It feels like a sprained brain. 🧠

And poor Kanye West as well. He has CPTSD too.

It’s CPTSD and bipolar at the same time they often co-occur. Kanye, stay strong 🙏

This is a CPTSD emotional flashback.

CPTSD isn’t in the DSM in America.

Surely they know this? It’s been in the ICD for 4 years.

I’m baffled I really am at the mental health services. I need to change it in some way, because the old ways aren’t really working and they use everything against you.