I called the mental health team today

They said “what brain changes?”

They said “I don’t understand what you’re asking us to help you with?”

They’re more thick than I am when I lack capacity.

My brain and body is on a downward spiral today. I’ve got a swollen throat, tinnitus, stomach pain, a weird headache, and twitching. I’m getting on bus to another hospital or mental health team, they’re annoying.

They don’t listen.

He goes to me “you’re incoherent, you’re not making sense” and you keep laughing at me.

So what is it you want help with exactly I couldn’t help but piss myself laughing.

I said to him surely you’re not that thick? 🫠😂😂😂

Well England did say in 2018 – your intelligence is your biggest curse Natalie. They don’t treat with mental health like that in England. At least

I said don’t worry. I’ve got a solicitor.

They want to prove medical negligence and clinical negligence they’re going the right way about it. This distress with the CPTSD attacks and their lack of intelligence baffles me. I’m so confused what they’re there for? They don’t like to help you do they. He basically told me that I’m number 9 on the bipolar scale without me saying anything – he said them words not me. He said incoherent so I’m just checking my doctors chart.

I think I’m manic and have physical issues going on. But when you have a BPD label they go “you don’t need help.” And flick their hair back like they’re experts. If they’re experts than I’m a genius.

I sometimes wonder if they buy their psychology degrees on wish.com

If my case got brought up in court it would be so funny it should be televised to show how funny it is. I can’t stop laughing. And I’m in agony with my infection or whatever I’ve got wrong in my throat.

Yes I have stutters in speech because I’m 2018 England thought it was Multiple Sclerosis which actually normally follows PTSD attacks but my stomach something has gone pop from about 3000 appointments asking them to check it. They don’t listen my periods are black and 1 day long.

Anyway I asked them to reassure basically that I don’t have bipolar and they don’t think so.

Okay. Thank you.

Can we televise this please about the mental health system? Let’s make change.

Let’s the change the system.

Good plan.

My exes are like “I don’t understand how you’re not diagnosed with bipolar yet because it occurs alongside CPTSD. It’s actually a warning ⚠️ more chance of developing PTSD. 🥴”

They’re like surely not. I just called my ex and he just pissed himself laughing and said well yeah you have bipolar and CPTSD.

I’ve got now very bad chest pain and palpitations my heart keeps going funny like it’s moving in my chest.

This is horrible. They don’t want to help you you know.

Obviously I’m manic on top of the CpTSD it’s cyclic look at the email above.

And then look below.

Same dates you know? I’m waiting for GP surgery to open.

The woman who was ignored by the system repeatedly in England and ended up with physical and mental health issues. Yeah let’s do that.

The politicians are probably sitting there thinking huh? Did they study or did they pay someone to do their assignments for them? That’s what I want to know. Hmm.

No wonder my CPTSD and bipolar is so bad.

Gaslighting. Yep. 👍

I have a theory they think I’m a whistleblower when I’m not. I’m just an ordinary person with trauma issues and a changed brain. I had no intentions if they want to gaslight me h that’s up to them but it’s caused significant harm though, I’m not going to sugarcoat that


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