I think the worst part of the CPTSD for me is the heavy head, vibrating headache, dilated pupils, and the rocking back and forth, with the physical symptoms and you’ll be sitting there being able to express yourself but trying to remember information is challenging despite being able to read.
I’m so numb, struggling to feel emotions properly, and they still want to cover it up?
I don’t mean it in a bad way, but if someone has literal PTSD and they’re okay with changing the label to BPD for PTSD symptoms to prevent someone getting the support, it’s one of the most harshest things someone could do to someone. And I don’t understand their reasons for it.
My distrust with them is valid, considering I told them when I moved here “I have PTSD”.
Nope, still refused to treat it. Had a go at me for my BPD scores being too low in the BPD groups for years, and then externally triggering it, for whatever reason I have no idea, by writing the opposite of what I wanted on a letter that’s attached to my medical records, that they’ve really dug themselves a hole by.
It’s not okay to do that to someone. It’s not a way of thinking, it’s a permanent brain change, I didn’t have these symptoms before – like the emotional flashbacks, I had PTSD symptoms, but not this which I can prove with a separate blog I had at the time and you can see and compare the distinction.
This is basically what’s happened.
- They’ve deliberately ignored the PTSD.
- They’ve realised it’s their mistake that has lead it to become CPTSD or even both.
- They’ve then tried to change the label back to BPD when they realised it was them and then use the one trigger that will create a similar cluster of symptoms similar to BPD – emotional abuse, and then defame your whole character on your medical records.
- Welcome to NHS Scotland.
- Well, the clock is ticking.
- https://youtu.be/jvU4xWsN7-A?si=5f7FCK5fk4Fmc0uR
You don’t harm people deliberately. And think for a second, you can get away with it. Not under my watch. Sorry. Guess it’s the PTSD in me. Maybe my empathy has gone for a walk. Well it’s caused lasting damage. So congratulations. My brains destroyed forever. I think you already knew that.
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-scotland-highlands-islands-61965277.amp
They never changed. They’d cover up my CPTSD to save their backs. Especially when all I wanted was genuine help.
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