CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

Imagine your body being trapped in a state of survival, fearing death constantly, having multiple physical symptoms including a brain that feels stuck in time, where you have to vividly remember your traumatic events whilst swinging between highs and lows, pacing, not knowing what day it is, forgetting things, intrusive thoughts, nightmares, night terrors, which the services then use against you to say “she wants attention and intentionally call the police on you.

They do this to so many people when they’re supposed to be the ones helping people.

This hasn’t been the first time.

And I’m not the only person they’ve done this to.

When they defame my character, and make me react to their injustice, don’t think someone else isn’t watching you.

So if you’ve retracted the footage from New Craig’s between the 4th and the 7th November 2025. We will find out.

Other PTSD attacks in public: 24th December 2025 in B&M Inshes in Inverness.

I have more places to evidence this.

So unfortunately because of the long term damage caused by the clinical negligence, I’ve got no where else to go to get away from a discriminatory system like yours, so I’ve had to seek advice on personal injury because it is so I can escape your intentional cover ups and get the appropriate help for my needs.

I might have nothing in life, no friends, no family, nothing.

But there’s one thing I hold on to in life – and that’s my survival mechanisms.

Because my dad has a rare personality disorder known as narcissistic personality disorder. My social services paperwork from when I was a child said I behaved like the parent.

So no, I’m not against my mum. I just know she has BPD (dissociative PTSD) not CPTSD – and if I can prove my CPTSD – and show the services confused this with BPD, then that protects every woman diagnosed with BPD so they’re not weaponised by the mental health system so people with BPD will no longer be judged and be put in trauma therapy rather than told they’re a problem. Because the current system doesn’t work. It never did.

I will ensure that BPD is no longer considered a personality disorder and put under dissociative PTSD, whilst I fight my CPTSD.

Do you want to know why my mum was the way she was with me but not with the other children? Because I was the cause of her PTSD because she got pregnant so young with me. That’s why. Not because of her character. So that’s what NHS Highlands refused me therapy for. Long term emotional abuse. Because, well, they’re not clued up on mental health illnesses, especially not NPD.

From, the daughter of a narcissist.

Except during my discovery with the interpersonal work I’ve done on my father hence I studied psychology in the first place, I’m past the manipulation.

I also found out NPD is a form of childhood PTSD.

So I told my father my mother was the problem and that he needs to get a mental health assessment from the mental health team with urgency, not to hurt my mother, but so I can prove he has NPD.

I can only manipulate narcissists to protect me because I was raised by one. He also has ADHD. Like my brother. Because recent research suggests there’s a significant correlation between ADHD and NPD (childhood PTSD) in men, and ADHD and BPD (dissociative PTSD), in women.

I’m an INFJ.

Just buy the PTSD workbook and find out for yourselves. Connect the patterns.

And if you wanted to know how my brain changed. I asked my ex partners friend for advice on something. He triggered unintentionally a childhood wound, then the catastrophic personality change happened. And at first, I had distorted perceptions of the perpetrator, until I started going through 800 pages of my trauma childhood paperwork to discover the how and why to find solutions for problems. I didn’t make myself a victim. I decided to use it as fuel to find patterns. To discover what hasn’t been discovered yet.

So, NHS Highlands, whilst you were judging me, and my mum – my mum wouldn’t do any harm. She’s a nice person, but beneath my dad’s NPD so is he. Because the problem with me is I have empathy for those who have abused me in life, because I see the reasons behind it. And then I try and fix it. But not just through words. By setting an example.

CPTSD is pretty much PTSD on steroids.

So my father caused my CPTSD. My PTSD was caused by 6 other traumatic events.

So when they want to lie on my mental health documents, we are going to have a problem.

A serious problem.

I try and find solutions. To end all pain.

Not to re-victimise myself.

I’m permanently damaged anyway.

I have nothing left to lose.

So that’s why the ambulance have been out because I’ve had to throw myself into the deep end and re-experience, with all the physical effects, of all my traumatic events.

So, answer me this…

Why did you lie Steve Cargill? Whilst I sit on my floor for months in intense fear experiencing severe PTSD attacks.

Because you’re not a very nice person. That’s why.