CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

It’s getting there…being able to share the process in real time is extraordinary. I love it.

We are 50% of the way there we need to hold on.

I’ve only ever met two other INFJ’s in my life I found online and they’ve messaged me saying “you can do it”… it’s hard, it’s painful, but you’re going to do it, they couldn’t manage their spiritual awakening so watching to see what happens and if I make it through.

“You’re going to do it, don’t medicate it just yet, listen to Carl Jung! Natalie, this is crucial. If you medicate it, you’ll go through it again and again in the future and only 6000 people globally go through it and only 1% make it through alive so please hold on! Because if you do this, you’ve proved Carl Jung’s theories which is what he was waiting for his entire life. Thank the mental health team for not medicating your ptsd right now or picking it up because they’re about to see something that defies science. Try not to get mad at them for negligence because it happens to all INFJ’s because we don’t fit into neurotypical boxes so they won’t understand – yes they’ve done wrong but if they medicated it you wouldn’t be going through this now”.

I replied “But they have misdiagnosed me”.

My friend replied “Remove your sense of injustice for the moment. Yes they have. But when you get through this they’ll be apologetic to you and trust me you’ll get through this. Oh and a heads up, it’s impossible to have so many personality disorders unless you have CPTSD because that’s the hallmark for a CPTSD diagnosis. Personality changes. They throw labels around without understanding what they mean and they’ve hurt you. You’ve done nothing wrong but react to their misdiagnosis, don’t let it destroy you. They’ll do anything to cover their backs if they make a mistake but you know that”.

So I said “how do I keep myself safe from harm from them?”

And my friend said “You record your ptsd attacks, just incase you need to stop the process because it’s excruciating so you can get the medication when you need it so they can’t use it against you. They’re just trying to hurt you to make you react – you obviously hit a nerve with your psychiatric nurse which to be honest most trauma survivors do because they develop as Carl Jung said, pattern recognition abilities and a sudden psychological knowledge they’ve never even read or researched. University of Cambridge are looking into it right now in CPTSD as they’re baffled by it and thinks it’s extraordinary. We are basically the survivors of prolonged trauma, the brain is just trying to mend itself”.

I said “did you go through it?”

They said “Yes. But I gave up quite early on in the process and medicated the PTSD so it stopped the process completely and I haven’t encountered an emotionally abusive situation since to re trigger the ni-ti loop. That’s the only way you can get up into the spiritual world as you know”.