CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

What does this belief say about me?

1. That I’ve disconnected from the world for the past 7 years.
2. That I’m worthless and unlovable.
3. That I am afraid of intimacy and love.

What does that statement say about me?

I’m permanently damaged. And since it all coming back I’ve now just realised I was never healed from the 2018 PTSD. I’m was living it but had dissociation. It kind of hurts when you realise it never actually went away and you didn’t even notice until it was too late and your brain is changed forever. It’s a shock to the nervous system.

And what does that statement say about me?

That I’ll never get my former self back.

I kind of miss her. She went through battles and was healed back then. But it’s too late. And because of my intelligence, no one believes me. Being born with a high IQ is a curse. Trust me. Because IQ stays intact with PTSD.