CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

If I knew what I know now, I’d have stayed single completely.

As men have always been a trigger for my CPTSD, my body was slowly deteriorating until its ultimate collapse and now I’ve developed gynaecological issues as a result like extreme pain during sex, infertility, etc.

If only I wasn’t raped or sexually abused in childhood. 💔

Your mind might want friendships, love and relationships, but the body will fight against it.

I dissociated. I forgot. But when the flashbacks all came back, I realised why my body was fading, mixed with emotional and prolonged psychological trauma which created the dissociative PTSD on top, I wonder if I’ll ever be able to be with a man again?

I want to one day? But I wonder if it’s too late because I was repeatedly rejected trauma therapy and accused of being a liar because of a “BPD” label.