CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I’m going to explain this in a very simple way. He did not abuse his wife out of malice.

Women were an external trigger of his CPTSD because he was abused by his own mother. He didn’t have awareness of this at the time.

They labelled him bipolar, NPD, BPD.

He was scared of sleeping alone searching for a rescuer but was constantly being triggered hence his moods rapid cycled that “looked like” bipolar disorder.

It wasn’t.

I don’t support men hitting women in the same way I don’t support women hitting men. I’ve never been violent in my relationships, nor would I ever be. I’d abstain from a relationship with a man if I felt triggered or warn them to back off beforehand.

Only time I agree with abuse is if I initiate it to save my life like to access trauma therapy so lies aren’t put on my records over and over again, or in self-defence.

I don’t agree with some of my ex partners actions, but I wouldn’t hate them because it’s not me.

Now people know why I can’t ever have a relationship now the CPTSD is here to stay. Too dangerous, no fault of others own, and I don’t even have a history of violence. No. I can’t. Well to the guy in 2018, congratulations when you said “time will tell” – it hit me. Harder than expected. And my body is going under too. Army level manipulation is psychological warfare.

That’s how bad CPTSD is. I do wonder how it’s confused for BPD sometimes.