CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I’m trapped and stuck.

NHS Highland really wanted to hurt me didn’t they? Well they succeeded.

This how CPTSD starts…

Then you get the PTSD attacks…

Then comes the horrible suicidal thoughts. And you’re fighting to stay alive but you don’t want anyone to know your brain is trying to end your life for you.

And all it takes is one external trigger of a past abuser. I’ve had so many abusers, that my story would be crazy to even believe which is why I’m alone.

That’s why I have to make difficult choices, just to get the correct long term help I need.

Because it’s impossible to simply ask for you know?