CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

And now they’ve replaced it with BPD again.

So now I have to find a criminal to abuse me to push me into a severe crisis again to prove my CPTSD for the third time.

Third time lucky. I’ll ask my ex if he knows anyone. It’s the only way isn’t it? I’ll just do a written letter to say I won’t get them done. It’s a last resort because my month and months long crisis episodes aren’t triggered that easily so I just need a man to beat the hell out of me. Because they’re not going to see it on my face. PTSD you can barely see sometimes. I have to go swinging from a high to a low again.

What other choice do I have? To get trauma therapy and prove myself. I don’t. I need to do this to try and survive.