CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

Have you ever had relationship PTSD from unsupported childhood sexual abuse? I have.

For example: I’ll give a case.

So…

A woman was raped in childhood. When she’s single; she’s fine alone, working, studying etc, then suddenly she will get feelings for someone in her adulthood then go into BPD symptoms with additional PTSD symptoms but if relationship PTSD and CPTSD are occurring at the same time then in CPTSD you’ll usually search for a rescuer that is emotionally unavailable so you don’t have to get true feelings for them, so you are avoidant in the relationship, and falling for them can then trigger the relationship PTSD that looks like BPD and if that’s unresolved, that’s when it can be dangerous.

I genuinely cannot 🙅 fall in love with anybody or have feelings for a man because of sexual and emotional abuse in both childhood and adulthood.

For me to be okay I need trauma therapy then I need to do the work on my self by doing graded exposure with a man that’s not an external trigger of my past abusers.

But that’s only the relationship part.

Should I just admit to myself I’m totally screwed and I have no choice but to be alone for the rest of my life?

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