CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I’ve listed 7 men that sexually abused me in childhood above the age of 18 at the time.

The flashbacks keep creeping up. How did I dissociate and forget? Whyyy. I was trying to enjoy life and my independence before 2018.

I basically lived on the streets as a child and still managed to come out with B grades at GCSE despite the school saying I had difficulty processing information and was avoidant. I was punched by random adults. I lived in a war zone lol. And now my head is screwed. Majorly. And I can’t find anyone with my symptoms right now. How many traumatic events do people have to go through when the brain decides to collapse and crumble? That’s what happened to me. Yet even when I have 800 pages of information and evidence people say “we don’t believe you” because a “BPD” label ruined my life. Yet I’m the one that’s going to end up with permanent brain damage from being refused trauma therapy by Steve Cargill and his pointless team. He has to be a misogynist and someone who hates English women. Without a doubt. I’m going to bring down the men who ignore abused women and make them think their trauma and survival mechanisms is their personality.

My personality hasn’t changed since birth so go shove your opinions elsewhere.

How they can going to start fixing now what men were doing 20 years ago. All the women in England are going crazy because this was our childhood. They can’t fix that. I’m trying over here.

It’s all catching up with us.

It’s just so bizarre how my mum was diagnosed with CPTSD after a few incididents from her childhood when I’ve had multiple when she has BPD symptoms and I get fobbed off by some men in the mental health team hence I don’t trust them. What were they up to 20 years ago? Can’t wait for them to take me to court. They’re going to see about 70 traumatic events that’s happened to me and the judge will be saying “how can she not get PTSD from this Steve?”

Clock is ticking and I’m waiting.