CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I keep going into PTSD attacks when we speak and it’s not his fault.

It’s the abuse I’ve experienced previously and I don’t know how to stop that so I can get some support from someone who knows me better than anyone else. My brain automatically registered him as a perpetrator during my crisis because of my childhood traumas.

He reminds me of my dad sometimes now the CPTSD has hit. But only because they both have ADHD. Why did my dad have to develop NPD. And then with what happened with the work situation in 2018 added into the mix. It was a gradual process. My brain just went.

How do I stop my body being externally triggered by men that remind me of my childhood traumas?

I got a headache when he was talking to me and it’s not him that’s caused this.

So basically my dad messed up my whole life for me. But won’t realise it because he has real NPD. And my mum developed BPD when she got with him as a teenager. Which is being reclassified as PTSD because all the BPD symptoms are in the PTSD workbooks. So why are women hated so much by the system? That was Steve’s aim. Externally trigger me to induce suicidal ideation and write off any form of trauma focused therapy.

That’s why I reported him. Writing the opposite down of what I told him is going to be stuck on my records forever now. Don’t you think they tried that one in England?

I probably have co-occurring BPD, but the issue is people with Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria also meet the criteria for BPD.

BPD is PTSD caused by immense trauma.

RSD is a separate condition that fits the same subset of symptoms BPD does, so EUPD is RSD. I have real PTSD (BPD) and CPTSD.

Three years we have to wait until it’s put under PTSD. Three more years.