CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I’ve got a headache, I’m pacing, nightmares, dissociating, I need the correct diagnosis down for court on the 26th that my ex has been summoned to.

They’re the ones going to see the PTSD attacks.

The police have been supportive of me, but then they always have. The paramedics have helped me through the worst of the PTSD attacks. I feel stuck.

So I still don’t understand why he wrote what he did after I was sectioned because my ex said “I don’t know what she’s got, but it’s not BPD” and he was with me 6 years. Also I have to ask men to please not be toxic to me because I’ll probably end up getting feelings for them and that’s never a good thing. My recent ex was very careful not to trigger me for 6 years hence he treated me well. At first he thought I was sensitive and then said “oh no”, she’s smart. And intelligent.

But I developed differentiated consciousness though lol. 😂 My dad has real life NPD so I think it has something to do with that too.

It’s CPTSD. 1. It’s linked directly to my prolonged childhood trauma. 2. I get ptsd symptoms. 3. I get intense episodes of fear where I feel like I scared child again and start crying and flapping my hands. They would never understand what that’s like. Feeling stuck, pacing, dissociative, helpless. And then I have to deal with PTSD at the same time.

How many more men want to break me in life?

And why does it give them the satisfaction to do that?

Unfortunately, Steve Cargill had other ideas. Blame the grown up adult men who wanted young children for sex 20 odd years ago. Not me. I just have ride through the effects. Don’t forget, I’ve never had any treatment or psychotherapy for the sexual abuse I experienced as a child so my ptsd and CPTSD will be bad. And the episodes will last months. It’s called being ignored by the system because of a BPD label. Surely it’s not rocket science? 🧪