- Don’t betray me because I’m an INFJ and it triggers a spiritual awakening. It’s a bad idea, and causes issues for myself and public services.
- When I tell people close to me to stay back when I felt it creeping up on me, men need to stay back because otherwise I get confused about the perpetrator.
- I’m a forgiving person but it requires communication.
- I’m upset with Steve Cargill because I specifically told him I need trauma focused therapy – intensive trauma therapy for me to recover better due to the multiple events of abuse I’ve had in my life and he wrote the OPPOSITE down. Who does that? That’s why I’m mad at him. I don’t know how to develop the trust with him again and the only option I have are my notebooks, pens, create blogs to express my pain and thoughts to try cope through the severity of it to try and get my brain back to Earth a little. That’s extremely difficult to do, especially when you never had a childhood because you never had the chance.
- You either know you and your team misdiagnosed me Steve and trying to cover it up, been speaking to perpetrators who are responsible for my CPTSD as a child, or you thought you could write anything down as “people don’t believe those with BPD anyway”. Newsflash. In England, if you’ve been abused by men in life the first label the mental health services give is BPD. It’s very common to go to an appointment for 5 minutes and they just hand that label out like sweets then say “not fair on the man”.
- Well it wasn’t fair on me as a child being blamed by my school at the age of 13 for saying “she’s sleeping with 26 year old men” and I was blamed… as a child, by the school that got closed down for being inadequate. We had teachers at that school arrested for sexual abuse too. I lived in a civilian war zone. Unfortunately, all my traumas came back to me…unintentionally. And you want to blame me for that? Well go right ahead but I’m sure Carl Jung will help me through if you choose not to.
- You betrayed me, that’s why I am mad with you. I hate being open and honest to a man face to face for them to take my abuse and write something untruthful down. It f*** hurts. Now my brains never going to get any better is it. I’m going to be time hopping, space hopping, spiritual crisis for the rest of my life as I couldn’t get the correct level of help because of labels psychologists and psychiatrists don’t understand.
- I hate the fact I was born with a high IQ and AuDHD because IQ always remains intact with PTSD which the higher the IQ, the more dangerous CPTSD can be because people like to change the world.
- I don’t just randomly “hate” on men, or switch, unless they hurt me in some way. That’s the difference.
- So if you want to gain my trust Steve Cargill you might want to not write the opposite of what I tell you I’m struggling with because it’s not okay and if you’re happy doing that; you’re not right within yourself. And I need to trust men again to be able to have a relationship again HENCE I’m avoidant. It’s not rocket science. It’s very very simple psychology. You are aware during a CPTSD crisis you DO display some BPD symptoms right? Because it affects the same areas of the brain? CPTSD was only added into the ICD in 2022, the only options to put it under WAS BPD previously. They think 75% of women diagnosed with BPD have CPTSD instead because it wasn’t included in the ICD until recently.
- I’m creating a new diagnostic criteria when I return to planet Earth and have learned to distinguish between my standardised PTSD and my CPTSD
CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified 
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