CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

The pain behind his words:

He was destroyed for speaking up about his trauma. He went into waves of outburst of emotion, after experiencing so much, but we had a similar childhood experience. He had rapid cycling bipolar symptoms, and see the doctor multiple times for physical ailments.

The thing about Hemingway is, he never had bipolar disorder. He had CPTSD and PTSD at the same time. I know because I have both too.

Losing your former self to the men who wanted to take your trauma and make it into a weapon, or who couldn’t love you in the way you loved them, creates a different kind of person. People grow through their trauma. The trauma might be embedded within your nervous system, but the sacrifice is speaking up to save your own health and your own life.

Ernest Hemingway never got that opportunity. He knew his life would end in tragedy because of his PTSD. He just didn’t know when.

If he was alive today we could have saved each other, because no one will ever understand us.