CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

To the woman who only ever loved and respected men, helped others, was creative, and saw the positive in everything.

I’m sorry the system took everything from you. Your health, your life, and the ability to be you again.

I’m sorry they’re trying to cover up their mistakes and cause you to live in the shadows of your own traumas everyday.

I’m sorry they betrayed you on every level, stopped you from working, from living, and surviving.

I’m sorry you have to endure systematic abuse over and over again because they don’t know what CPTSD is.

I’m sorry you’ve gone through prolonged trauma and never had a voice.

I’m sorry when you were raped at 13 the man’s friend cleaned up the blood and no one said a thing.

I’m sorry you were beaten up so much between the ages of 7-15 and traumatised by girls at your school.

I’m sorry you experienced prolonged psychological abuse.

I’m sorry you will no longer be able to have a relationship with anyone because external triggers can send you into the spiritual realm.

I’m sorry you’ll never be able to have a family or friendships again because you’re too broken.

I’m sorry you have multiple health ailments that get ignored.

I’m sorry you’ll never have a home again.

I’m sorry you went through so much and were put down.

I’m sorry you’ll never be able to trust the NHS again.

I’m sorry you’re permanently damaged.

I’m sorry you’ll never be happy again. Just numb. Dissociative.

I’m sorry they didn’t listen to you in 2018.

I’m sorry you’ve been abused so much that you’ll never have a life again.

I’m sorry NHS Highland took your last final hope away to survive. 💔

I’m sorry that you’re going to go back into a spiritual crisis because of the distress and re-enter the ni-ti loop.

I’m sorry you were born to a father with NPD and ADHD. A very rare combination.

I’m sorry no one heard your voice; and even after shattering, they still didn’t hear your voice.

I’m sorry you lost everything in your fight for survival.

I’m sorry you were surrounded by paedophiles as a child.

I’m sorry your mother wanted to destroy you.

I’m sorry you had knives held up to your throat.

I’m sorry you were told you were inattentive and had difficulty processing information, daydreaming, and will never get anywhere in life by social services in school.

I’m sorry you have to randomly sit there and burst into laughter whilst your brain vibrates whilst you pace with memory lapses.

I’m sorry you were born with an IQ of 164 which in ptsd the IQ remains intact.

I’m sorry you’ve never been loved by anybody.

I’m sorry you’ll never be the same again.

I’m sorry I didn’t protect you enough.

I’m sorry what happened to you in 2018 happened.

I’m sorry England assumed I’d get the right support here so sent me here but it turned out to be worse than them.

I’m sorry you had to come across a man that hates abused women – Steve Cargill.

I’m sorry you have to experience 2018 all over again but worse than before.

I’m sorry that things will never be okay again. ❤️