CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

My ADHD has still gone missed. I’m confused as to how, because my brother and my father has ADHD. It’s just rare in the girls on his side of the family but every one of the boys have it.

I recognised my ADHD at a very early age, the hyperactivity can manifest creativity or racing thoughts in girls. I have the inattentive type – the type that goes missed.

I’m hoping they’ll pick it up one day so I can work on controlling the symptoms associated with my ADHD alongside my PTSD illnesses. I was diagnosed with ASD when was sectioned, but did wonder how they missed the ADHD – I suppose because of the stigma associated with it because boys can be very reckless if unmanaged, even violent.

Boys may create businesses, whilst girls will make things. I struggle to do daily tasks, I’m accused of being a daydreamer, lazy, struggle to listen, always late, assignments submitted late, etc. I’ve always needed extra support in my education despite my level of intelligence. Despite having a family history and the classic signs, I’m always told “you don’t have that”. The thing is I do and I was born with it. So I’ve had to try mask it in life. But that’s the beauty of having a father with ADHD.

They won’t understand my type of ADHD. That’s why I was diagnosed with two forms of ASD in 2007. One of the diagnoses was my ADHD. I realised when people said “but how can you be diagnosed with both Asperger’s syndrome and ASD when they’re now known to be the same thing?”

Because I had inattentive ADHD. That’s why school was like “she has difficulty processing information” she’s not going to pass her GCSE’s.

I struggle with everything above the psychiatrist is saying in the video, but that’s been since birth. It’s ironic how I have real ADHD but I see many people with personality disorders getting diagnosed with it, probably why mine went missed. If only they knew what it was.

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