CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

My head is still heavy. It feels like the brain is vibrating, I have tinnitus, and I keep staring into space; having issues with my memory, even though I look like I am in the present moment, my cognitive function isn’t very good. I’m struggling to read or take information in despite the need to express myself.

I’m a bit slowed down.

Tbh though, when you date men who struggle with theory of mind issues and lack empathy, at least they don’t give you any hassle when you’re just blazing through the ptsd attacks. Peaceful.

I’ll never be able to have a relationship again. Not unless someone could handle me, which I highly doubt it because I realised my fear. Falling in love again.

I loved my ex but I was never in love with him. I cared about him. Was never in love with him. I just didn’t fancy a CPTSD/PTSD crisis by dating someone I’d fall for.

For me to get over the relationship PTSD I would probably have to fall in love again and that’s off putting to me. Plus could they handle the spiritual crisis? Probably not. Not worth the hassle unless they have the patience of a saint for the nervous system to learn it’s safe to fall in love again.

More hassle than what it’s worth. Would not recommend.