CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

How do you manipulate a narcissist into therapy?

You treat them like the victim. Because they are victims of their childhood wounds.

That’s how I managed to get my dad to ask his GP to send him to mental health. They turned it down a few years ago despite never claiming disability benefits and working his whole life: they turned his referral down. That would have helped me a lot in my recovery and to prove my scientific theories so we can find prevention strategies. Now I’m having to convince him to pay privately.

My recent ex would have gone for an assessment for his ADHD but he said his work is more important and laws prevent him from doing so and anyway neurodivergence is currently advocated as a “superpower”.

It’s anything but a superpower. We are wired in different ways, but superpower – it is not. It’s a blessing and a curse.

Ever wondered why Kanye West had his bipolar type 1 associated with creativity changed to Autistic Spectrum Disorder? Because the “tortured genius” is CPTSD. Most Autistic people develop CPTSD.

My dad has ADHD and NPD (PTSD) with borderline traits.

The thing is…

He says things to me like “I made my accountant cry because I need more work”.

I don’t want my dad to hurt my mum. I don’t want my mum to hurt my dad.

But my whole life I’ve been in the middle.

My dad has a toy room. He buys things like police batons, toy cars, toys, like his grandfather who was a police officer who adopted my grandad because he was put into care for ADHD. It’s generational. He sent me a picture of a window in the care home he was in as a child and said “this is where I sat and cried for my parents”.

So I went onto ancestry to try and find out if I can find some relatives on my father’s side his real dad could have been related to.

I found a few famous people/lecturers/psychologists.

Except my dad’s family are what my mum called “all dysfunctional”. Basically you have a family of 40 abused neurodivergents.

I was attacked by half his family too. But so were my cousins whom I was close to.

They called us dysfunctional. All of them have theory of mind issues. Every single one.

When you glamourise Autism, make sure Neurodivergents do not encounter trauma, because their brains are wired differently and it can cause serious damage like Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Antisocial Personality Disorder…

Most of the time, these aren’t bad “people”. They’re victims of their own childhood experiences.

So whenever people call me the mean one, I think to myself, you have no idea how to bring up a broken child – a modern day Peter Pan.

He only has empathy now because of me.

That was my work.

I wanted to see if it was possible. But it took me 20 years to convince. Not overnight.

This is my dad. With his business.

Real NPD. None of his other neurodivergent family members have NPD alongside their ADHD. So I had to carry out psychological experiments. That’s why I studied psychology. But I guess you don’t want a treatment for NPD the way people throw the word around. My dad said he’s exactly like Frank in the video. He said “oh you’re intelligent Nat, that’s me – I’m an egomaniac” – I said yes dad. An autistic egomaniac. That’s harder work. I tested his ADHD assessment which was very high. I also tested my dad’s NPD score which was 8/9 traits. So yes my mum was abused by my dad but my dad cannot recognise that. I decided to try experiments to see if I can change these personality traits and reverse NPD. My dad is transforming but I had to figure out how to manipulate. I just don’t manipulate for personal gain. Only for survival purposes. So yes, Highland Council. When you accuse me of being a “narcissist” – at least understand what NPD really is. From the Narcissist’s daughter. Because that’s an external trigger, of my dad. If you want to externally trigger my trauma, then please don’t blame me for the CPTSD episode. You throw terms around like that with no evidence, there’s going to be consequences. Because you knew this. Hence you provided therapy to 2 of my other family members because of my dad. Then ridiculed me. Yeah. I’m not a narcissist. I would identify because of my dad. I don’t have excessive business like goals, I don’t want to become famous. You wanted evidence? There you go. You can have the evidence. You made me this way. 🙋‍♀️🧘‍♀️