CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I have a tally chart. Lists of names of the people who have ever hurt me. Lists of institutions that have ever brought me down. Lists of degrading comments I’ve received. More and more lists.

Accused of being narcissistic for being Autistic. Real Autism.

But, I couldn’t get help from the system in the same way everyone else could. I had to learn to stand alone.

That scares people. It doesn’t scare me.

Welcome to the life of an INFJ.