It’s dangerous to fall in love with CPTSD. I can only have platonic relationships. Relationships where if I like someone, but the feelings aren’t strong enough for a relationship. This is because falling for someone can send me into PTSD attacks, since I was with my old ex Steven.
I really loved him, but he has ADHD and was very unpredictable.
He said he misses me, and loves me recently and wants me back and thinks he can “fix” me.
I’d get back with you if you didn’t break me like you did in 2016. My body went into severe panic attacks when I saw you in 2023 for a chat. Your friends kept saying to me for years, please find someone else. That was the last time I could love properly. I don’t know if it’s worth coming down to England for a few weeks to see if my nervous system will react around you, or whether it would be too dangerous. I just can’t risk it at the moment.
He disappears for months on end then comes back. Or would message whenever I was in a new relationship to try and get me back.
Years ago, the relationship destroyed me.
There’s never one perpetrator in CPTSD. It’s multiple.
My brain is too damaged to fall in love again. I can’t risk it. I knew that in 2018.
CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified 
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