CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I’m fighting to survive: but I feel like I’m in a prison in my mind.

I only see darkness. I don’t see anything else. I keep getting repetitive flashbacks. Of trauma.

Do you ever wonder how you could go through your whole life thinking that you’ll be strong enough to cope until one day you break?

That’s what happened to me.

I’m so scared. Petrified.

I don’t even know if this is irreversible now. Especially when you’ve experienced too much in life. I’m tired of people asking me for evidence for my CPTSD. Just read up DESNOS.

I don’t want to go through feet twitching, physical symptoms, a brain that hurts and vibrates, a headache, sickness, and pain.

I don’t want to have to relive my traumas just to prove to legal systems I’m suffering from mental health just because I look okay on the outside.

They just don’t want me alive. Because they know ADHD, the INFJ and CPTSD is capable of changing the system: not that we want to. We just want to feel safe and protected.

I’m always going to be silenced, 🔕