CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I started working on my PTSD symptoms 7 years ago.

My 2018 results differ from my current results. I didn’t have the diagnosis at the time. I was told I was a borderline and was “attention seeking” so I had to find other ways to help myself.

I suppose that’s why I have differentiated consciousness now.

The thing is, people aren’t sorry for what they’ve done to me. They fear rejection. They fear what others think of them. They fear feeling uncomfortable. I can’t relate to that. Because I’ve always been uncomfortable. My body has always been on a hyper-vigilance setting.

From the results above, I have deteriorated over time.

Which relates to Hemingway’s quote: “You are so brave and quiet, I forget you are suffering”.

How can two parents love their other children with immense respect and love but leave another child who only wanted to work in life and have a decent life in a state of confusion?

This is the effect…