CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I’ve had many depressive episodes in life but not the type of depressive episodes that would make me want to intentionally end my life. More low levels of despair, anxiety, thought block.

This is separate to my CPTSD and PTSD. I think I possibly have bipolar type 1 associated with creativity on top, but that’s what’s rare: 0.6% of the population have it and it’s associated with the term “tortured genius”. I’m tortured, but I’m no genius.

It would be impossible to pick up: it’s far too rare and this type shouldn’t be medicated.

47% of Autistic individuals have bipolar type 1 and you are 10 times more likely to have bipolar type 1 if you have CPTSD.

Mine would never get picked up. I’ve had it over 20 years though, so I can deal with that part. I sit and I write.