CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I had to question if I was a narcissist. I know I’ve always known I was born with ADHD as it is connected to my hEDS. I have intermittent Dysphagia, can’t swallow food properly some days and can eat fine on some other days.

I had a cancellation appointment from the hospital recently for the dietitian.

They can’t offer me any further appointments.

I haven’t cooked in about 2 years, I’m disorganised anyway, even when I’m not having my PTSD attacks.

The issue is people see my ADHD and ASD as narcissism. I wish they knew I generally just have Autism and ADHD that I was born with.

Just people never want to see that we genuinely do love and care about others. We just communicate in different ways. Neurotypical’s struggle to understand that. I undertook a personality disorder test at the same time and NPD and ASPD was my lowest score.

How can I trust the world that accuses me of being a narcissist when I was born with what’s formally known as Asperger’s Syndrome?

This is why I prefer to be alone. I feel like neurotypicals lack empathy. All they seem to do is judge. It’s highly confusing for us neurodivergents.