CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

My ex was worried he would get blamed for my CPTSD because of his undiagnosed ADHD and PD. He was probably told to section me for bipolar disorder.

Little did I know; I’ll find out I have CPTSD and my childhood memories would come back to me.

Even after receiving this diagnosis, I was still being forced into believing I had bipolar disorder. Unfortunately, my dad said there are things you shouldn’t know. But how am I supposed to heal if I don’t know what they are?

The problem with me is. I have CPTSD but I was already broken by psychological abuse in childhood.

INFJ’s are built on psychological abuse since birth. We can’t be destroyed, but we can develop harmful conditions like PTSD alongside.

I keep going into intense fear and emotional flashbacks, waiting for someone to save me from myself.

I realised the SNP never protect abused women.

They break them down into parts until they have to live in fear instead.

That’s why they don’t support people with mental health. When I was sectioned I saw broken people. Kinder people. People who were hurt by others too. The mental health team were lovely. I trust them. Because they didn’t tell me why I had CPTSD. They just let me know I had it in the hope my brain would feel relieved. Instead, I have to experience institutional discrimination from the highland council. I already experienced that in England. I don’t need to be re-traumatised. They did it anyway.

When I recover; I’ll speak up about it publicly and make sure people know who helped me and who didn’t.

No one should have to experience what I have in life.

I’m not scared of the political system. I have a qualification in politics. I know their games, their tricks; what they try to hide. I know how they break people down. I know what they do.

You can’t kill an INFJ. You can only try.

This inner war is just beginning. You can try. But I know your games.

Welcome to the resistance.

My grades for psychology were never great. I struggled with cognition, statistics, I needed extra support. It was a struggle. But I have ADHD. ADHD doesn’t affect intelligence.