CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

My mother used to switch on me quite rapidly growing up. She would say “I love you Nat; then “I hate you”.

This always left me in pain psychologically and emotionally. Unfortunately my dad with both ADHD and vulnerable NPD, he keeps saying “your mum hurt me”.

I think we all hurt each other.

My brain is permanently damaged. I realised that after my PTSD was triggered back into a full crisis 7 years later; which impacted on the already CPTSD.

I’ve never been a borderline; but knowing too much is just as damaging as knowing too little.

I just get judged as one, erased from opportunities in my life, pushed out of hundreds of jobs, solely for having that label. People would see it like a game when they say “It’s fun to break down Narcissists and Borderlines”. This is why I avoid people.

No it’s not funny to break down either of them.

They’re both forms of PTSD. Don’t judge what you don’t understand.