CPTSD/Disorders of extreme stress not otherwise specified

I have court in a month, to decide if a legal error was made in 2018 when I first had my PTSD attacks. I was having this, but now it’s a million times worse.

The UK government decided I wasn’t eligible for disability benefits at the time because I’ve had good jobs and an education. Story of my life.

I can’t even drive because of my ADHD.

I have differentiated consciousness from trauma. Why do I have to face them and be reminded of how they took my home from me and stopped me getting the support I need to the point my PTSD has become irreversible? The issue I have is, if they ask me what happened back then, my body will fly into PTSD attacks in the court. I’ll be arrested. That’s something I’d rather avoid. It’s painful enough.

I look fine on the outside (unless I’m in a PTSD attack) that’s the issue. My ex has been summoned to attend with me. Which means I get a double whammy of PTSD attacks.

Fun for me. But who cared about me the last 6 years except my recent ex? No body.